Solemn Vow

I can’t let you hurt me anymore.    You are in my head.  You are in my dreams.  My lost thoughts are of you.   But it all leaves me empty.   I have to remind myself that you make me empty.    I have somehow lost that part of me that has the power to flick you off with the twitch of my finger.  

I can spot you a mile away.  My breath disappears.   My heart thumps in my ears.  Those golden butterflies flutter in my belly.   I see nothing else and I hear nothing else.    Those are my vulnerable parts I have for you.   They are the sacred things I never share.  

You invest nothing of yourself in me.   I invest the stars in you.   

I stand here blindly.  It will take the strengh of a 1000 men to lift my lashes and open my eyes.   To no longer be blind.  To no longer be empty.   

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